when you blame yourself for in the most unreasonable way. |
Too cruel Haven't I lost enough? Haven't I suffered a lot? Haven't I fought against these bad thoughts? When will my pain end? Will it ever? Isn't this too cruel. I've pushed horrible thoughts away They circle me like vultures. What do I do when these thoughts won’t leave? What do I do when it falls apart? I'm not strong my brain is full of misery. Only this face is smiling. I have no friends to count on will it last? I'm selfish and scared. The one who protected me has gone Its just too cruel. I do I feel I'm so different from the rest? Why do I feel the need to hide this. Why am I being haunted? These thoughts aren't they scary? Brain, how cruel. Ghosts of the past. Sad memories replay. Take myself away Sometimes there is no pain and sometimes the pain won't stop. Why am I always being suffocated? Why do I feel such blame and regret? Still so cruel. My wishes for my future have crashed. It hurts because I don't understand. The more I think of you the more I wonder why Why did you hate us Why take her too? What did She do? I really thought you loved us It seems like my pain is everlasting Why am I blaming myself Why am I so cruel? |