Choice in Love

I walked away
slammed the door
pretended it didn't matter anymore
I let my heart become a stone
The elusive one
forever unknown
Leaking waters shut down
No one would see the doubts
Hiding the sorrows for another day
Over time it would surely fade
How did it come to this
Heartache of the deepest kiss?
To choose between
the hardest of choice
A mother's love
or another's voice
I knew I had no pride
if I walked to the other side
stand; be the one
give away the heart of one
kill few to spare the many
never is it easy
Emotional death comes with costs
living with someone lost
Staying married for deceit
what did we really teach?
We knew it was over - done
Love was already gone
The children didn't ask for this
So, we dawned our mask
to give them bliss
pretended that love is pain
sometimes there will be rain
for better or worse is what we said
praying for mortal death instead
Finally the wounds were bared
the words of dread came to spare
we walked away
pretended no more
we didn't slam any doors
The day of reckoning had come
all those years now undone
The words were elite bliss
Moving forward to anything wished
How could I have ever lied
told my children alibies
Pretended so deeply love was pain
hatred was the song sang
now they don't understand
that love is not a horrible thing