Secrecy

I could drown inside your eyes,
They're so blue and vast.
But you always tell me discomforting lies,
Which makes me feel downcast.
Sometimes I sit and wonder
How someone can be so cold,
Yet, at the same time, love me so tender,
That I end up feeling too bold.
It doesn't seem right to me
That you can throw insults and not think twice.
Everyday I fear to see
The outcome of such striff.
So maybe what I mean to say
Is that I love you dearly,
But sometime the price I pay
Leaves me sad and dreary.
I wish that I could leave this place,
This prison I call home,
But on this matter I have no choice,
For surely you won't condone.
And this is why I've left a note,
Please do not be mad,
I've done this all and grabed my coat,
So that in secrecy I may be glad.