Don't Dare Harm Me

Things were becoming a blur
I knew we were about half way through
He was beating me and raping me
But what was I supposed to do?

He was stronger and I couldn't hope to fight back
I closed my eyes and tried to go slack
My hatred for this as well as him was growing
Bitterness swelling as he kept going

Was he doing this just to see my fear?
Was he blind or could he see my frightful tears?
Then he whispered in my ear
Words that made my rage severe

His last words those would be.
Did he really think I liked what he did to me?
He said goodnight and closed his eyes
He couldn't see through my disguise

I took out the gun that I had hid
And think of all the things that he did
I lay in bed looking at him
Watching as his chest moves up and down, out and in

I think about what he did and what he said
All those worlds that filled me dread
But he was sleeping, not caring that he had filled me with fright
Not caring that I won't sleep tonight.

He just didn't care, he didn't think
I could end this all before I blink
He was so defenseless there instead of me.
The way it always used to be.

But now I had my chance
And I'm going to take it, feeling in a trance
I held the gun by my chest
He was so vulnerable now, he couldn't protest.
I held that gun aimed it at his head;
Pulled that trigger and now that man is dead

The only thing that made me not feel guilty was the final statement that he said
The one that made me decide that he should be dead.
Oh he said "Be good tomorrow and I might give you more"
I glared at his dead body as it lay across the floor

Oh because he didn't care, he didn't think
I ended it all before I could blink