The Lord is my Shepherd

The Lord is my Shepherd,
I shall not want
He makes me to lie down in green pastures
He restores my soul

The knowledge that God provides for me and is looking after my soul is astounding
My tired, broken soul is in need of His comfort right now
And I lay my heart before Him in absolute contrition and surrender
Knowing that He, in the unmerited favor that He bestows on me
Is the only One Who can truly make me whole

Today, for an unknown reason, my heart was drawn to Psalm 23: Not being someone who reads the Bible, I find my reflection on this Psalm to be an event not to let go by. My heartstrings were pulled toward this moment of pensiveness, where I can sit before Him and open my soul to soak up and drink from His loving tenderness. As I recall the words of the Psalm from a place long since accessed in my heart, I tear up almost instantly at the words - "He restores my soul". I who go through my life relentlessly relinquishing my greater purpose to the trivial pursuits of my daily life - am in need of Restoration: This word is so powerful, and I refuse to let it slip out of my firm grasp in this moment, without truly experiencing its magnitude.

Why is it that I cannot stick to any determined goal?
How do I allow the smaller defeats to clamber for number one place in my Purpose?
Little by little I have seen, over many years, how this process of missed objectives has chipped away at my trust in myself
And diminished the place in my heart where I totally believe in the Powerful God that resides within and through me

I lay here wondering when, if at all, I will become disciplined and focused enough to overcome any obstacle standing in the way of Purpose
And I cannot help but feel that it will all just end in another endless heap of disappointment in the dry landscape of my life
I so deeply desire the rewards inherent in making my Vision a reality in a real and tangible way
I so desperately long for the moments where I can look back and wonder what it was that was so difficult in the first place

I am in need of Restoration
I am hungry for the green pastures that He would make my soul lie down in
And the next few sentences in the Psalm describe it well:
I want to be "led in the paths of righteousness for His Name's sake"

Oh Father of all of us
I cry out to you for strength and a renewed vigor to tackle what I need to deliver
So that I can make You proud, and me proud and my soul proud
Please lead me Shepherd into the paths that would bring about this restoration