SH ANE

I often wonder if it is just a disease. i have prayed and asked God to take it away.

This battle with my sexuality, it weakens me.

Why can't i love men? Why?

What made me this way?

I need answers.



I don't know if God will still love me the same.

God can u?

Can i give it one more try?

One more prayer,

One more belief,

Will You listen?

I am afraid to look into the night sky

for i maybe staring right into your face.

Will you reprimand me for my sexuality?

I don't know how to keep from thinking the worst.

Imagining that God must have pulled away.

I THOUGHT A FATHER ACCEPTS A CHILD, FAULTS AND ALL.

I can sense it.

My heart feels a little broken and am confused.



Coming from an anti gay society,

i feel like an alien. AN ALIEN IN LOVE.

Its called a disease and gays mistreated but i would rather

be put to rest beside her coz then i wil smile for eternity.



I would rather look into the face of love

because its kind always.

Lovely eyes, lovely lips,and a smile that could melt the hearts of men.

Brown eyes, Light skin, an epitome of true beauty.

She makes me proud to be gay.

I feel like an unforgivable sinner for i always run into the arms of love when all seems to shatter around me



I can't help but think of the day when she'll break my little delicate heart.

The day when my chocolate skin-brown eyed angel rips my heart apart.

I need someone to tell me

"hush now", "hush Rose", "quell the fears, darling"



OR MAYBE THEN, I WILL BE STRAIGHT.