Your Lack Of Love

How can I watch you fall from my past or my present

It doesn't seem to matter what you've done to me, my heart and my soul

As long as your cup runith full

You showed no love or compassion in your husbandly role

There was never really enough romance for my heart

I love you enough that I believed you could care for me

And love me as I knew it should be

My heart hurts and my soul feels dead

I'm beginning to think I dreamed up your love for me in my head

I'll never understand your lack of love for me

I'll never understand why you can't love me as I love you

I know what I deserve

I know what I need

I know what I want

I know that all that won't equal what I get

I'm completely frightened by you at this stage

You have my heart and its locked in a cage

You take it out and abuse it as you please

You take advantage of its pure love and compassion

You treat it like a game or a toy

There for you to play with as you feel the need

While it's too loyal to object

It made promises to you that it refuses to break

Yet you made the same and break them so easily

It still can't turn away from its promises

Despite the hurt and gut wrenching pain

in the end, there is nothing but self loss and hurtful gain