Looking For Me

I sit here alone night after night, drinking tea and wondering when I lost myself. I used to be so full of life, so vibrant, now my world is colored in shades of grey. I miss my rainbow, my love, my life. I never had to worry now, I worry all the time. I used to have dreams but they've turned to nightmares I just can't escape.

I used to trust openly and wholeheartedly, now I question everyone's motives. I want to be me again, carefree again. I've loved and lost and moved on from that. I just wonder about a lot of things and most time's never get answers to my questions.

I've looked everywhere. I still haven't found me yet. This is the first step, just some rambling to get started and maybe tomorrow I'll find my rainbow when my sun comes back out.