Depression causes many to give up. Why we all ask. When love died for all of us once in our life, we died inside. We tried to call and plead what we wanted. To no avail. Some of us died that very day. Wanted so much to be nothing into existence. Love lost is almost the worst heartbreaking thing we could endue. There was a time when people told how they felt to ones they wanted to end love.There were other times when those words could never be spoken. Wounds held for years effected masny a lover without even understanding why they were rejected. The ones they loved held secret they thought they could never tell. Dep dark secrets that they could not tell anyone, and they could not even know why their actions ruined the life they wanted and never understood why they lost because of their past. Demons they never wanted, Reasons they never wanted to explain.n, even if they could. I wrote this today out of deep sorry and regret. Within all of us is that time when we regret so much. Tears into silent windows, that we look into and out hoping just once. That love would return. Burning inside us we all feel such depth of ones we loved. Whether it was sons oe daughters, loved wives or lovers. All gone because we just couldn't find the words. If there is a universal truth, if we could have just said that one word to make it right; it escaped us all. So where are we? If God had followed us, if God knew our hearts, why did we fail? Did we somehow fail God? Did all we lived our lives for fall into nothingness? Who will say we are right or wrong. The ones we loved so much are gone. Is it our faith Why wouldn't God impose upon their hearts to seed we loved and cared so much. Within all this deep thought I write, you as a reader will see what I am saying.. Into all ofd our hearts is a place no one goes. It is a place where our hearts deepest thoughts reside. It is where we keep all those demons and our best thoughts of who we are and to be reside. It is such a wonderful place at times. Because withint those deep places we do reside. Remember when we wanted to say the right thing? When all the bad things we wanted to do to others. just took pause, and we knew it was wrong. That was what God instilled in all of us. We tried so hard to be us. It is remarkable that all we grew up to be has become ruined. Is it not true that when we were kids, all those wonderful desires and wants were so real. Why had all those things left us? . . |