Gnostic Poems

Invalid

I cut my veins with sharp pieces of a reflection of my own
I’m now as much as a masochist as one could become
Like a junkie looking for a fix, I am addicted to find a way
A brighter light to shine down on my way… back home.

I’m trapped between the choices
As few as they are some days
Confused about the voices
That whisper into my head

I’ve perforated my wrists with nails only to assimilate my savior
I’ve become as much of a martyr as the next fool
Like a disease I am contaminating my rights and principles
A stupid selection of pills for the waking in the next world

(You) invalidated my freedom in choices
As few as you propose some times
(I’m) confused about all the voices
That invades inside my mind.

Death seems the only way out
But I get born again the next day
With every word that I’ve spouted
I run empty with things to say.

How could you amputate my free will?
Switch my choices in living for the kill?
No such thing as righteousness when you’re wrong
Even if you’ve had carved all of your laws in stone.


Evnly

A tear and a drop and then you’re drowning
Always by the ounce, subtly by the gallon
The years as they stop and then it’s nothing
A perilous zombie, mumbling and wallowing

Tracing lines on his way home
Over his mind, way above his head
Collecting dust as it is gone
Only the specter of where it could lead.

He says is a sign from heavens
Like David’s star
The greener grass
On the other side of the yard

Trying to grasp all of it
He tries to chase these strings
Slipping through his fingers
With nail scrapes on surface
Just to draw about a face
Through the concepts prowling
“One is all and all is one”
Even so here subsists nothing.

So how can this be?
If he’s read his notes
How could this be possible?
If the foreseeing was certain.

He cannot accept these results
There must be something else in the matter
There’s no room for miscalculations
No space left for the fortuitous
This journey he embarked
Should be fructuous.

But even so…

Contemplating a reflection of himself off this mirror sky
As he runs through this vacant lane hastily
He’s conscious that with these obstacles he cannot vie
Are the ones that must be removed predominantly.

Trying to grasp all of it
He tries to chase these strings
Slipping through his fingers
With nail scrapes on surface
Just to draw about a face
Through the concepts prowling
“One is all and all is one”
Even so here subsists nothing.

So where are you now?
I’ve been seeking in these never-ending pathways
Still I can’t see a shadow of evidence anywhere
Where are you hiding now?
I’ve dug deep into my brain muscles, turned my spirit inside out
Still there isn’t a shadow of evidence to be found

So where are you?
Mother, please answer to your child
Where am I?
What matters need to be applied?

Give a signal
I’m here now
Give me a sign
I’m ready for this now.

I will not lose patience
I must be persistent
I am now certain.

This will not be
It will grow on me
Like a golden rose
From beyond eternity
Reading the notes
This is impossible
I will reach the glory
Of revealing the veil
Yes, I am now sure
The foreseeing is quite certain
Just a more few steps
And I am at hand to be embraced.

My little child
My secret…
You and I
Were evenly…

My bread, my cup
Open up to me, my little child
Come and open me up
With your bright golden light.


Cohesive

I only let you get this far
Just to see what your actions would be
I only let you get to this point
Just to see what kind of person you’d become
And now that you’re standing still
You need to learn to bend down a little
And now that you’re quite smiling
You need to respect more, just a little
More… stabbing in the face
Stabbing in the throat
Stabbing in the chest
Stabbing in the heart
Stabbing in the head
Stabbing in the eyes
Stabbing in the brain
To slay the monster you’re becoming
Must put halt to the problems you’ve been causing.

You could have been the best in this field
But you preferred to backstabbed me instead
You could have been the one with the skills
But you decided to cut short the process.

Sinful as we human beings are
I laugh at your lack of disposition
Such potential wasted just because
You preferred to get high in the motion.

Good lord, now I must teach you the consequences…

Teach you how to bend down a little further
Cause you’re rigidly standing still
And I must show you to respect a little more
To erase that stupid smile of your face
By… stabbing in the throat
Stabbing in the gut
Stabbing in the chest
Stabbing in the heart
Stabbing in the head
Stabbing in the eyes
Stabbing in the brain
To slay the monster you’re becoming
Must put halt to the problems you’ve been causing.

I won’t allow this to get out of my hands
As it seemingly appeared to be for you
I must stop this before it crosses that line
I must destroy you, I must slay you…
Before you acquire a way to walk steadier
Before you learn how to bolt that door out
Before you unfold all of the secrets untold
Before you comprehend how to be completely cohesive.