Just a random poem of my thoughts |
living life the way I'm living is a little complicated, sitting on my bed with the knife to my wrist contiplating i know this isn't the best choice but right now I'm feeling really screwed all the reasons for me to do it outweighs the reasons the not to this is what happens when you think to much about life i guess you start doubting the good things and the bad things gets you stressed you become insecure and don't think your worthy of anything so you walk around with a depressed look and get sad at almost everything you can be talking to fifty people and it still seems like your all alone because no one really gets you and no one really knows the stuff that depresses you and the thought thats in your head the reasons that you frown so much and wish that you were dead is it funny how when your happy, everyone is your friend but when you sad and really need them that friendship always ends what happened to the real friendships, the "we'll always stick together and if your ever feeling under the weather come to me i'll be here forever" i guess thats the job of your other half right? but what happens when even their unfaithful in the night what happens when the one who claimed they loved you gets you mad the one who said i got your heart on a big reason why your sad or what about the people who don't know what it feels to be loved how are they supposed to see when their head it to heavy to lift by themselves and no one is around to help lift it so they can look above I've never been loved back even though I've given it so many times getting the girl always fails even though I've given it so many tries so I'm done trying I'm dine trying, its my turn to give up i can't sit here and hope for a better future 2m I've done that enough so i guess you can say this is a letter of my leave a letter of sadness turn to joy, a letter of my relief i'll walk toward the darkness until my body is transparent so please close your eyes and forget me, and just accept my disappearance... |