a thought defining life |
a thought in process that's what I am slow in the works taking my time staying in the sidelines watching others and learning a little behind though late in life as in everyday that blurs by all the new people so much to take in each adventure I take though a new discovery made a little more I know about me me as a person who I really am accepting the fact accepting myself to accept others life really is a circle spinning madly out of control or into it's pattern as the dice our lives roll by each little adventure trying to achieve something come out on top in the end or just hold on be alive for now "how are you today?" "alive" I'll say as I continue my work in process fix the house pay the bills need money for that fix the truck need gas money for this work for that lost in the hole can't quite see to find my way out must work on that too someone told me once or was it not to expect changes as it is always the same here in our lives working ourselves away fading lives into one no sense of individuality no remembrance of the true self trapped in our robot shells conforming to you and blending with them whom in turn mix with others all one story just different versions shouting to be noticed but in the end past all the bull and added extras one point is made we're alive as I'll say and continue my life in process trying to survive getting by where it's least expected barely holding on knowing that I'm slipping afraid of my demise but the rock over there will I make it dare I take the risk like every little chance in life where it brings me next do I have the guts to take it the call on the phone how does it end busy, no one home or never returned afraid but yet wanting to experience the questions but yet wanting the answers sometimes maybe things turn out my way but not when I'm trying why try if it always fails but then you'll never know all things people have said once I'm sure but yet not quite hearing learning for myself like the relationship told not to take why not might be fun if anything a new lesson learned another chapter in my book of me for of course if mistakes were never made we would not be here today and as I say "Alive" |