the thoughts that run through my head when I'm feeling very self conscious |
Break Down am I slowly going insane does everyone know but me knowing and just turn the other way not wanting the bother to help often wondering, what other people think not really wanting to know I hear what they say but not when I'm not there? am I good enough, for your attention will I scare you away so many people leave with me wondering.... what I've, done wrong? things that run through my head I think people would wonder the logistics of it all the debate that goes on the rambling on so... to myself the sounds I know I hear help make the pictures in my head. am I slowly going insane does everyone know but me or do I really know not wanting to admit the troubles I bring to myself, have gotten me thus far always at work or helping out her friends never home to make a mess just trying to clean, up others that's what I'd like, to think they say but know it's probably not lonely little home body mooching off of others I think that's, more like it people probably think I'm crazy or maybe insane but I already know that and don't really care cuz that's the way I think. I like it and don't think I'll change I'm my own person refuse to be one of societies robots must look a certain way or be odd, retarded or crap not good enough for your attention well, I think screw that this is who I am inside and you'll just have to deal with that Resolution making mistakes and learning that's what makes a life not the number of years you've been here or color of your skin not the kind of house you live in or the clothes that you wear just the rules that you live by risks that you take just the morals you use each day experiences that you make |