Until My Heart Had Opened

The hardest thing I've ever done,
is watch her laugh and smile,
but know that it is him,
whom she loves all the while.

It is hard to give my attention,
to her the throughout the day,
only to be ignored by her,
in each and every way.

I know that after all is gone,
both our lives shall cease,
but I pray that when that day shall come,
death come first to me.

There are so many others,
that fall all their lives for me,
but it is only her,
with whom I wish to be.

I once had my chance,
to spend my whole life with her,
but it passed without a second glance,
and my life is now deterred.

For so long I thought,
that I on my own was whole,
but I now think I've found,
the other half of my missing soul.

My eyes can see just fine,
but to the world were blind,
until my heart had opened up,
and allowed me her to find.