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If anything, i am at least trying to be aware of everything i can. sure, there is so much that’s happening that i will not even remotely find out or even figure out, even if it’s right in front of me. there is just too much. yes, this kind of thing has been said millions of times by people who are trying to be original, but the truth is that originality is not attempted. people who think about originality more than most have the potential for revolutionary ideas, but unfortunately most of those people get way too amerced in themselves, whether it be not conforming to your surroundings or trying do something that you believe will define you, but maybethoughts and interests don’t define a person, but how someone does those things or thinks those thoughts. how a person handles a situation, or develops in the same environment over a period of three or four years. as for me, well I'm one of those who try too hard, too conscious of what everyone else is doing so i can do the opposite. it sucks that I'm too egotistic, but i really don’t know what I can do about it besides just not think about it anymore. but the problem is that once i have this particular idea in my head i contradict myself over and over, frustrating the hell out of me. what does this have to do with anything? absolutely nothing, because there are pieces of writing like this all over the world by thousands of philosophers and scholars that none of them really take a matter in the persons life who happens to read them. and if it does, it’s not the effect that the writer expected because the individual person perceives everything differently, influenced by experiences and mindsets and... life, i guess.Because there are so many billions and billions of people, all different with different though patterns and such that each one of those people matters to someone. i guess what I'm getting at is that there is always someone to care and the rest to not give a shit but give a shit about something else, because there is no altering anyone because they are constantly changing and evolving into the person that really is a person, with an infinite story because they have the capacity to create ideas. everybody has this potential and it can keep us entertained forever if we attempted to because our minds are always calculating, always creating ideas and judgements and sometimes Revelations.there are some theories about how there are alternate universes in which every possible outcome of a certain situation is acted out, but that doesn’t truly matter because you are you, i am me, and tomorrow everyone will be completely different people.