Can you feel it? Living with apathy

Can you feel it?
Can you feel the joy of your newborn granddaughter as she cries her first cry? Can you share in the tears of happiness with your baby girl as she holds her newborn daughter? I can't.

Can you feel the betrayal when you catch your husband of 14 years having an affair?The sadness and anger at knowing this man you trusted and respected and loved for all these years is not the man you thought he was? I can't.

Can you feel the guilt of knowing that your mother is in a nursing home alone? The disappointment in yourself for not being the daughter you should be, visiting her and letting her know she's not forgotten? I can't


There was a time when I laughed, cried, screamed in anger, jumped with excitement. There was a time when I actually lived life and not just went through the motions. Those days are no more. I know what I should feel. I pretend to feel the things normal people feel. But I can't feel them. Can you?