A dear friend stuggles with Lupus...the strongest woman I've ever met, period. |
It was the first time I had ever seen her Show actual physical signs of her pain As her tiny body limped with determination Through my front door. My arms reached for her on the outside, to offer her assistance In conquering the small step Into my house. But on the inside, this gesture Was my heart crying out to her "Honey, I am so sorry!" Damn it, why is this happening? Why to her?! But knowing how much she would Feel no need to acklowledge Her current battle with her knees and hips I chose a different, but equally true greeting... She looked amazing! She was so beautiful. In spite of her underweight frail frame and an undeniable lack of any curves And the way her skin just looks stretched Across her bare bones, She was stunning. Her hair looked fantastic! I'll just die if she has to go back on chemo! I've never seen her when She wasn't all dolled up And just completely adorable. I've never seen her when She wasn't upbeat, focused, determined And juggling about 4 more things Than I think I could ever handle. She never skips a beat! You know those 50/50 friends The ones that have a 50% chance Of showing up to, or coming through for any time you want or need them around Well that is NOT her. As a matter of fact, I can't think of a single thing She's ever passed on, or not shown up for, And she has more reasons that most to really be not 'able' to make it. She will bring most of us to shame actually, I feel like a complete ass for every time I left my hair a hot mess (Sheer laziness usually) Or let an ache or pain hault my day. Her third consecutive medication is being completely ignored by her Lupus, and her entire body is Spiraling warp speed out of control As her 8 doctors lose another round of 'Stump the Chump'. Her connective tissues in her whole body Are detaching from her own muscles Like a civil war inside of her. I wish that I couldn't tell you that, that wasn't on a long list of equally terrible symptoms. She is the sweetest, strongest and most real 34 year young woman, I have ever known And this earth, her loving husband and precious daughter Will all have only a small fraction of as much time With this remarkable creature as they should. But I can offer this Golden Gaurantee She will be loved, and love others And she will do more, and be more And shine in all her glory Far more than so many others will even aspire to. |