Mom

I can’t bear to be without you

But being with you is so hard

I can’t leave you behind

I love you too much

You are my everything

The center of my world

From that day you picked me up

And became my mother

I can’t be without your love

But holding you close hurts

I can’t hold you close

But I can’t push you away

I trap myself

In your love

I can’t run away

I can’t retreat

I will love you no matter what

No matter the cost

I will suffer for it

And I know it

But I can’t lose you

I want you more than anything

You’re all I think about

I need you beside me

To look up at and say

“Hey Mom, can you help me?”

You are my all

I push and I pull

And I can’t decide

A piece of me is you

Those words you say

I love them so much

It hurts to hold you close

But I don’t care

I’d suffer it all a thousand times

For you

Everything I do

I think of you

You are everything

I can’t be separated

From that moment I first saw you

I loved you as my own

My guardian

My protector

My companion

My friend

My mother

I need you

You were meant for me

And I for you

Everything I do

I give my heart and soul

For you

For you

I love you deeper than anything

I can’t stop fighting

I can’t stop hurting

I hate myself

But when I hold you close

The pain lessens

You hold me

And tell me how special I am

You told me I could be great

I just had to try

I’d cling to your every word

And believe I could fly

You held me

Ran with me

You climbed with me

Showed me I could overcome

I love you

I could never be without you

I hurt you

And it hurts me

I hate myself

I hurt the one I love most

But then you hold me

And look me in the eye

You tell me

“Sydney, I CHOSE you

Out of all those babies, I chose YOU.”

And I realize that I am special

And I try

And I try

And I fail

But you never forget me

You hold me up

When I can’t walk

When I want to give in

You say “Keep going

You’re almost there.”

We make it together

You shining with pride

You tell me

“I knew you could do it”

And smile at me

And I smile back

A crooked grin

Missing a few of those baby teeth

But beaming with pride

Because you are proud of me

I love you

All I’ve ever loved is you

I push you away, and I hurt for it

And I pull you back

I can’t be separated

I need you

I know I was not meant to be without you

You are my guardian angel

My protector

My ally

My guide

My friend

My mother

I would die for you

I love you

More than myself, or anything else

I wake up

Your face is the first thing in my mind

I make mistakes

And I try and I try

But then I fall

But you always help me rise up from it

I hurt you

But you always come back

And tell me not to hate myself

But to find my way

I try and try

And never succeed

But you always tell me

“Just keep going

You’ll make it

I just know it.”

You hold me up higher than I could ever stand

I know I need you

I love you

I love you

I love you

I LOVE YOU

YOU ARE MY MOTHER

MY PROTECTER

MY GUARDIAN

MY COMPANION

MY FRIEND

MY WHOLE WORLD



I LOVE YOU

ENOUGH TO CALL YOU MOM



I love you, Mom.

I just don’t always know how to say it.