Am I in Love or Am I In Pain?

I'll burn all the negative dreams away and we'll watch the fire spread,
separated from you, I've always dread.
I'm sitting by myself, squeezing out blood,
if I'm never with you I'll drown myself in the flood.

I wanted you to be my tourniquet, but you rejected me,
Now I feel trapped and now you feel free.
I'm grinding my teeth against the wall,
I'm watching the blood splatter as I wait for your call.

Please stop the blood, please stop the pain!
Can you open your mouth so the blood can drain?
I just wanted to push your hair back, to see your face,
But you won't let me and now I'll kill myself and won't leave a trace.

I'm bashing, striking, smashing my head in the ground,
I'll do anything to relieve the pain, but in the end I won't be able to hear a sound.
Am I In love or am I in pain?
Am I in love or am I in pain?
Am I in love or am I in pain?

(Let the record show that the boy is in so much love with the girl but the girl doesn't recognize it. She spent little time with the boy and she just ignores him now)