Dispair

Hope is feeling that I am wanted
Afraid is hearing the truth that I am not
Ashamed of the tears I've shed from being alone
Obligated to hide them from all I know
Misunderstood for all my life
Violated when I misplace all my trust
Guarded of opening the whole way up
Judged from what is seen and not known
Powerless to stop it
Abandoned by those I love
Cut down
Ridiculed
Violated
Manipulated
Humiliated by those I call my friends

Fleeing from the pain
Dancing with disaster
Escaping from reality
Defending from your scarring words
I run away.