Still.....

I wrote this when I was about 16 or so, and was based off my relationship with a good friend of mine. At the time, I thought I loved him, and this is pretty much about how we were friends first and foremost, and no matter what happened, we would always be there for each other... I'm not much of a poet, this just sort of spilled out at the time. Any advice on improvements to be made would be very much appreciated. Thank you

~I Love You Still...~

My tears ran down over my cracked heart,
You held me close
As I shook from the pain I held
I buried my face in your chest,
Resting…

I was the separated,
You the whole

I love you,
The beauty of your face is nothing
Compared to that of your soul.
How many times had you held me?
Wiping my tears away,
Before I pushed you away,
So afraid.
Afraid to love you
Already knowing that someday you would break me

I felt so safe with you,
Yet so incredibly endangered.
My best friend, my biggest fear.
I never meant to love you,

You break my heart
Again
Again
Again
But I love you still

My best friend
How can I hate you?
How can I blame you, when I see the emptiness in your eyes?
When I hear your forced laughter,
See your broken gaze

How can I blame you?
You don’t know what you do when you look at me
When you hold me

I never told you the pain I held inside.
You just always knew
When I was tumbling through the darkness of my own mind
You held out your hands
Ready to catch me

But I never let you,
Always holding you at arms length
Yet dying to let you in…

Your heart had not yet been broken
You tried,
Yet couldn’t understand,
My heartache

And now I watch as they bring you down
I watch the agony crumpling your angel’s face

And now you are the separated
Both of us together

And I love you still
I love you still
I love you still...

I see you kneel on the ground,
You cry out to God
What to save you from, I don’t know

So I just wrap my arms around you
And pray that somehow
I can hold you together,
Though you tear me apart.


I can hear you shatter...


Your tears break my heart
I hold you close
As you shake from the pain you hold
You lean your head on top of mine
And rest…