Compressed

The effortless become whats been promised to the effortless.
I continue to desire the passion and devotion towards what
matters most. The continuing heat waves of jealousy and the
lack of conspiring goodness rave onwards. Still, I remain in
concrete stubborness of self pleasing. I miss the light
which use to dwell within the depth of my eyes, the black
center of my eyes. The windows to my soul. "You were as I,
tempted and tried." But here I lay, tried and failed. In what I
use to refer to as an attribute, the strength in which I use to
possess now lurks in the shallow waters. No longer do I
resist temptation, but temptation hoards on my flesh. You,
you speak to me everyday of my life. You plant a burning
desire to become what I may. To become what You may. I
no longer know how to obey what I must and must not. No
longer do I know how to feel the essence in which you
humble my eager mind. All I want to do, all I want to do is
worship you. Take me to a place, where I can see you face to
face... I will never forget. I have to learn to love You more.
More than this world itself. Teach me... teach me as I plea,
show me how to love like You have loved me. It's when I
peer through a cleansed leanse, that is when the beauty of You
Lord, that is when my eyes are opened. I see you in the
captured colours, light, shapes, sounds... stillness. Nothing.
Nothing but your true, original creation can ever render the
contentness You have always supplied for my soul.
I find the world has surpassed the reality of life itself.
That really, there is more to life than just being alive.
Its not our succession within the world that captivates
happiness itself, but the tightening within the chest,
the overwhelming happiness, and the smile which does not
cease to exist. We make ourselves learn the hard way every
time. Human nature? I will not dictate the absolute. Grace
has blessed itself upon our lives even when the worst IS our
lives. Its just hard to believe that the only way to live well
within the worlds eyes is to live a shallow life... Sincerely
though, all one needs is a steaming bath soaked in the
beauty of natures riches.

Rene M.