the new year feling

on new years. god it was such an odd feeling . i cant really explain . but im going to try to . okay , here it goes. you know how you replay a movie scene in your head, do that with this , and imagine how i felt. Me and trisha went to khens earlier that night , to get anilated. you know , drunk out of our minds ! and that we did . me and trisha are the odd ones in our group . were in our group , but we dont really like them, ya know ?

well after khen's , we vowed to go to khen's. but we oculdn't just go with us , so we went with three other boys. It was great , til we arrived. everyone just looked at us as we walked in the room , god i wonder why im friends with these people. i hate people like this . their so judgemental , and i hate them . why am i bringing the new year in twith them ? i should be with my bestfriend! but im not , im here. why am i here though ? i keep questioning why i was there. there was no point , but at least i got to go to two other parties before this. I went to khen's and Linda's . I kissed Andrew at Linda's. that was my new year kiss, other than Sam Chonski , at Lauren's. If i didn't show up drunk , i would of needed to gwet drunk , or leave . and i did a half an hour after the ball dropped. That seemed like enough time , for a quick getaway.



But back to the feeling , when the ball dropped we all ran out side, and i danced. noone danced with me, but it was still great. Im replaying it and i think of who else i kissed, and it was trisha . i always wanted that new year kiss , ya know , with an amazing guy . but as life keeps going , im realizing i need to stop waiting for that guy . im stopiing , and its hurting, but its worth it, So if i need to just kiss my friends, because i need a kiss , its all cool. id rather kiss someone i loved , than someone i couldnt give a shit about.