My Imperfection

My Imperfection

A scar on my forehead, like an off centre Bindi
(chickenpox)
A scar on my cheek, like a semicolon
(dog bite)
A scar on my tongue, straight through the middle
(a trampoline incident)
A scar on my chin, just outta sight
(discovered this morning)
A scar on my knuckle, under my pinky
(when I started mucking around)
A scar on my left index finger
(when I actually used a razor)
Scars onn my wrists, One faded, one clear
(paperclips got the best of me)
Scars on my thighs, shiny and white
(growing up, stretch marks)
Scars on my knees - dents from my teeth
(trying to stop myself from screaming)
A scar on my ankle, next to the bone
(chickenpox again)
A scar on my foot, one of my toes
(don't ask I don't even know)
Birthmark on my elbow, rabbit shaped
(technically not birth, appeared after sunburn)
Gap in my teeth, rare and genetic I think
(gum stops growing together without surgery)
Trich disorder, a kind of OCD
(I won't even say what it is)
Autophobia, fear of abandonment
(everyone I've loved has left me)
Addicted to caffiene, just the tea
(a habit from my family)
Nail biting and picking the skin
(can't rid the nervous habit)
Tendonitis, most of my joints
(tendon disorder, can't do much)
Maybe influencing my flexibility
(which is like nonexistant)
Dehydration, don't drink enough
(I'm just forgetful)
Undereating, not eating enough
(are they bones? I see bones)
Depression since when, grade 4?
(they never noticed, never)
A temper, esp. at my sis
(they just don't get it)
Pessimistic, bad thoughts often
(wonder where that came from)
Pushing people away, trust issues
(hah, same to that too)
Insomnia, can't get to sleep
(and when I do nightmares haunt me)
Family push me at everything
(want me the best at everything)
But I don't think I can do it!
(I wanna fail just to show them!)
He's maybe not who I think he is
(I'm maybe not who I think I am)
A different night, a different man
(was it a plan? I was unwanted)
A different name, a different identity
(but that's not who I am!)
Almost adopted, but no, too much
(instead I just live with him)
He's depressed and broke
(my fault)
I caused 2 others depression
(me!)
They hurt themselves
(My fault!)
Tried to kill themselves!
(MY Fault!)
This isn't even all of it.
See my imperfection?