1/24/2011

Hey everyone,



  Thanks for all the comments from my last journal, I am having a better day than I was Thursday and I hope it goes good the rest of the week. My parents don't really hold me back its just they put me down a lot like calling me lazy, stupid, your throwing your life away, get a job,stop being a bum. I mean aren't you supposed show your children love, care, support in what we want to do in life, help with some of our problems? I know you can't baby us for the rest of our lives but a little help and support wouldn't hurt none.



  I used to think I had really great friends, but that only seems to happen in fictional stories these days. Because the day I decided to give my virginaty to my best friend all my so called friends turned their backs on me and started calling me a slut, whore, bitch, cunt, and every other fowl name you can think of. I was always there for my friends I never or should I said I would never turn my back on them, I would have supported any decision they made even if I didn't like it.



This last Saturday I spent the night in a hotel with 3 of my good friends, one of which I was sort of dating well he and I had an amazing night together then when I drove him home the next day he had one of his friends come over and she and him ended up doing stuff, I think I have every right to be mad. I mean I know we weren't ofically dating but when I give myself to someone it means I trust and really care about them. I would have like to have felt that I was good enough but obvously you can't find a guy who is faithful in high school all they want is a peice of ass. I told him I would think about ever getting with him, but in all honesty he and I will be nothing more than just friends.



  Well that was my weekend I had fun but then again the fun had to end sometime, I am having a good morning so far my cell phone got shut off which sucks but hopefully I can get 25 dollars today. Well I am signing off everyone have a fantastic day..

Mercedes Green