The dark day's of which I live

Night! Day! Whats the difference?
I live in the dark. I have always lived in the dark. It's doom and gloom surround me in this life. I know no difference between them. What is the difference. Thats the question I always ask myself. Is there a difference. I want to find out but I am locked in this life. What did I do? Where did I go wrong? Death draws nearer to me and I welcome it. Maybe there will be a light at the end of that tunnel of which people speak of. Maybe that light is what I need to see what life really is! I hope it comes soon before I am consumed once and for all.