Some Drifting Thoughts

In the depths of my mind I feel the insanity growing,
I'm so used to showing,
that I'm normal in every way,
but when I can accept my flaws that will be the day,
in the middle of the night I can hear my mothers soul say,
life is pain,
three words that can cause strain,
everyone would like to think the world is sunshine and hope,
I feel like an ass but I would have to say nope,
I've seen friends and loved ones die all around me,
I'm trapped in a prison I can't see,
o please lord set me free