Who's to Blame?

who's to blame

I reminisce the days you spoke to me when all seemed heavenly
The walk becomes a burden heavily lay-ed upon my shoulders
Yet this burden is a part of me
who's to blame?
Is it God? my own doing?
If I could turn back the hands of time would I alter my life trials
A burden of Love I would never change
It has molded me
so unique different in so many ways
Such a bittersweet burden that instructs patience and understanding
mysterious thoughts have me pondering how can Accommodate your needs
Love such a powerful emotion destroying the anxiety, the pain
it overthrows the frustration
who's to blame?
throw in the towel, it's helpless
no need for prayer it's the storm that never perishes
negativity whispers in your ears
but there is no losing
this love is determination
this love is will power
this is the Love that overcomes
this Love is you
All the pain, frustration, all the heartache
can never replace the love, the happiness that you give me
I try to put myself in your place to have the thoughts you have
to know your needs and wants
I mistakenly thought I would be teaching you
but it was you who gave me patience, love, and determination
who's to blame?
God?
Indeed, the greatest blessing granted to me to give me
a child who has been my teacher
a child who has overcame many obstacles
one who was unaccepted yet loving, was misunderstood yet caring
I love you my son


to my autistic son Zac