Best left unsaid

The words were so sweet and full on my mouth
But felt so heavy once they'd been spoken aloud
I'd placed my broken shell in your hands
Trusting you wouldn't shatter me to the ground

Now I write you from a safe void between us
Since you'd never tolerate my voice or its sound
My chest is still sore with regret when I breathe
Forever drowning in wisdoms violent and loud

My heart was swept clean and my thoughts tucked away
His smile stirred no warmth, while he drifted and strayed
My face now a blank canvas with nothing to say
He'd broken my heart the civilized way

In a sleepless state I'd be drunk with dread
That one day we'd have shared all the thoughts left to be said
The fire grown still and quenched with resentment
And the silence stay unbroken across our bed

I pictured in dreaming the end of it all
I saw your eyes dying, disappointed in me
The shadows grew long, your love drew to a halt
Discovering the failing woman I can be

And in our old-age, so as not to cause an upset
Tip our minds, sighing, into the open
Your heart now grown numb, you'd never forget
And call down a curse on the day that we met

So forgive me, please, if I'm trying to save
And savour our moments before they are bled
Before we grow dim, our arguments thin
Tie up your words, it's best left unsaid