just some thoughts about communication. |
She said she could never tell what I wanted all I asked was for her to show up She always said she would but somehow never could She said I used her and I asked what was my gain If that is the case why do I feel shame She said I never trusted her, at one time I did I let her put our life on the line when we were kids She said why am I the way I am? yet she never shows up except to sin. What the hell am I supposed to think he confused my head and made it hard to think She said some of the most hurtful things to me most of which she forgot She said hold her hand and I did, as for two years I fought Now I sit around listening to the minds of men There is no escape from beginning to end They talk as if we are items on a block I guess we are and this I forgot Some how this idea is related to free yet all they can say is how they wish to control and abuse me They give not one regard for the impact they leave on innocent minds they pleasure infused with the smell they leave behind I wanted to trust and let down my guards yet not one reason was given in my hand of cards although you were sure to let me know our lives were in your hands so don't let go She said trust me and even after hurt I did but where was she? Somewhere still hid Then they warned me of who she really was no longer the same, watch how you give your love She STILL try's to pull on my solarpelx even after I stated how this made me vex Where is the respect from you, you want me to give you keep telling me this is the only way to live You avoid my questions weather vague and direct and when I make mistakes yet tell me my future is set Then you sit and really wonder why I seem so eager not to try I sit and wonder who you really are were they lying when they said keep you far Away and do not dare trust It used to be I would argue and make a fuss What is wrong with this picture where is the trust They talk about me at the places I go I sit quietly pretending not to know The shrink said I am crazy but you and I know what truth there is that we can not expose I have nothing but the family I love it pains my soul that they do not know It hurts that for them they will not know respect because the ones who violate are those I protect It hurts that the men and women call each other names and this way of life is all a part of the game The next generation will come along More lost then this one where has it all gone What are we doing building something to protect when what we got Is the violation almost the same as the one's we fought This is insane, yet somewhere they say it is a must what are we protecting and where is the trust The ones who know more can tell, where to find a good sale the ones who need help better not tell Bass akwards please help me understand cause as far as I know I have lent a helping hand What am I helping? I wonder now we do not wish to be tagged and made to plow What is the plow worth what is our gain right now the moon is red with blood stains If what you say is true then this is why I always ask to speak to you I guess your shoes I will never understand and my shoes you no matter the size you wish to expand Will we have the choice of when and where? Or do they come from everywhere Will It be just that one pair of shoes that you borrowed, and so many got to wear I will not let my used shoes be made not to care nor will I loan another pair Will we get to choose what dances and stages we perform on or will you show your love with an objection as an angry storm Will we be made to suffer in pain as you compare to child birth all our worth gone down the drain as if the birth of life was in vein The feeling so low of a cycle's tail spin not being able to say no to people that abuse again and again Not on shelves do we find our healthy food sat outside are a supermarkets clerks blues Inside, anywhere dare we say food still not prepared the proper way Any ingredients used no one cares even though some have a special diet and it is not fair All they think of is their bottom line and all we think of is protecting our behind body spirit and mind If our goals are not aligned then we can not see that is why the sky is so cloudy at times Our meals were met to be prepared slow now their sold as just grab and go Our shoes were to be for special occasions now any one steps on them it aint amazing Our home should have been built on a solid foundation even when the ground was level the contractor was on vacation When asked for an advance simply to dress professional I was told it would make me lazy, so no When asked for support so we could become more self sufficient you said we wanted to make you a slave to our living When asked why did we not get our car the response was I don't have time baby I'm a star When asked are you going to leave and not come back The answer was don't worry baby I got your back When asked why it was you never showed? The answer was baby your nagging is getting old. When asked ok if help i must can you show me how the answer was well hurry up now When asked who do you pick to drive in your car with the answer was they do not like me so who else? Shit. When asked why I move away from you It is because I don't understand your moves When I ask you how the game goes you said I take care of mine that's how I flow Now your song is why do you keep trying to tax me My answer is why do you wish to freely use our energy |