Some stuff was going on last year; and I needed a stress relief - so I wrote. |
I never knew With love came pain In the end It just screws you over Feeling naked; over-exposed Used and abused Why me? Everyday is the same A fake smile; laugh I’m alone Mentally and physically A chance to think Just to forget; move on Impossible Forget you And the joy you brought Like a high It came fast Leaving me breathless And destroyed Alone? Hate the word; the emotions Alone. I know that hurt It hurt me too Letting people down Not following through Incompetent; useless These feelings in me Never going away Eating me alive In a way, I deserve this A personal punishment Betrayal My life-to change Could I? Strengths; guts Take a chance But I can’t. It scares me; change scares me. Being me and no one else Why me? I want, need, to know Hurt - pain. How much more heartbreak Can my heart take? This hurt Weighs so much On me; my will Fight back To survive The world hates me No one wants me around No one knows me Yet they continue to judge I’m a no name A nobody No one cares for my kind I’m an anomaly Different; unique I want to be normal; blend in Being looked at; pointed at Whispered about – it’s no secret I’m compulsive I want to change But I can’t. |