Accidental Teen Pregnancy |
The night I got pregnant nineteen and naive I was on birth control and the condoms just kept breaking so I said it's fine I'm on the pill, no worries, no problem, it's totally alright It turned out to be a one night stand nothing in common with each other besides our job where we had met each other he was a charmer and I was a flirt young and stupid I now realize we both were Two months later I got the news two pink lines not faint at all they were clear and bold there was no denying even though I stilled tried at first it was utter disbelief then I fell to the floor and cried my mind screaming in agony that this couldn't be happening not to me I was on birth control right and it was only one night it couldn't have lasted all that long how could this have happened no the test has to be wrong! Go to the doctors and it's hard to deny the test, the heartbeat, and the flutter on the screen as the doctor explains to me you are about two months along based on your LPM and the ultrasound congratulations, have you had any symptoms, go grab some pre-natals I'll see you next month for another check up as the doctor says all this my mind starts racing I'm to young and I took precautions then it dawns on me I have to tell him but when I get to how to do it my mind draws a blank he isn't any more ready than I am, I tell other people and tell them to keep quiet and then one day a girl accidentally let it slip and as I heard it he got really sick and almost passed out he had to go home and soon I got a phone call it was not pleasant what did I expect it was a shock and I handled it all wrong after that we weren't even friends we couldn't get along at work and so one day I did something more stupid than anything else so far I told him the lie of all lies I said "the baby isn't yours" and those four little words I regretted for almost a year until one day I got up the nerve and started to try to solve the problem that I had caused and now today despite the stupidity and our age we co-parent our precious little boy NIcholas and I just can't help but smile because his dad stepped up to the plate for his son and now he has two loving parents instead of just one plus his Dad's girlfriend and his family and friends and my friends and family too this kid is loved beyond all love from sea to sea from ocean to ocean beyond anything a naked eye could possibly see. |