Three Simple Words

Three words.
Three simple words.
Easily pronounced, but difficult to mean.
You do not know how desperately these words want to come out of me,
to roll off my tongue so naturally.
As if it were meant to be.
But no, I will hold them in.
Hold them like a prisoner caged within my throat
what freedom is like, they will never know.
To some,
these words are just three syllables thrown out like a simple greeting.
But to me, its more than something said when you first meet me,
it has meaning.
What is love?
Is there even a definition?
We all define it in our own way.
To me, its something great.
And with you, I will feel it.
I’ll feel it like the warmth of the sun during summers in Arizona.
Maybe I’m not 100% sure, but something is there
and I pray to god that you’re prepared.
Prepared to handle a wreck like me.
To pull me back into existence as the person I am meant to be.
To set everything from the past free.
I’m ready to let go of what has been done
and as long as you can hold on then I’m ready to let go of the past
memory by memory, one by one.
That way I can make room for the ones we will make.
I promise I am here for you, a promise I will never break.
I know there’s something here between us and I’m not stupid enough to let it pass by.
I have already done this once and there’s no good explanation why.
Just another stupid choice tangled up in what is labeled as ‘my life’,
cutting through all that is good for me like the end of a surgical knife,
leaving me cut open and hurting at my own fault.
But it won’t happen again.
I have you to protect me, right now only as my friend
but soon to become something even better.
You and I will be together.
You are only person who has listened to all my thoughts and words, good or bad.
You get me to think unlike I ever have.
I find myself smiling.
Not the kind of forced smile thrown on to fool the world,
but a smile plastered on my face at the thought of knowing I will be your girl.
It feels so good thinking that, even better when you say it
and when I’m down those words are in my head, so I can simply replay it.
Daydream of you
and me
dancing in the rain for the entire world to see.
Feeling safe, you won’t let go of me
I love those dreams of how we are supposed to be.
And as I sit here thinking, waiting for it all to occur
I wonder ‘am I right for her’.
The second thoughts dance around in my head as I am persuaded into thinking you deserve better.
But I am reminded that it’s what you want and we will be together.
Someday.
Some way.
It’s all going to work.
And you will show me what it’s like to have a feeling other than this one called ‘hurt’.
I will smile brighter than the sun
and revel in the life with you that will soon begin.
You were right.
You win.