So hard to!

I want to live but life is so hard to hang on to
I want to die but death is such a cowardice to look forward to
I wanna smile but, smile with people hell bent on making u cry,  it is so hard to
I wanna hit but after effects make it so hard to
I wanna dream and grow but responsibilities and commitments make it harder to
I wanna love but unconditionally it is tough to
I still wanna love but thanklessness makes it not worth to
I wanna go to some place afar, alone, but loved ones make it so hard to
If only I knew that life was so hard, be born, I would not have wanted to
But, then when u see the love your dear ones give, the gifts God gave, it makes it hard to keep away from life too!