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why do i feel like this? why do i miss you when your around, why do i hate you when your not? how did this even happen? sometimes i speak without thinking but at the current time of living your all im thinking about, i cant go on without you on my mind, even though im wrong bein around you gets me right - but i gotta be honest, the suspense is killin me, the guilt is really gettin to me, my conscience is eatin me alive, if i make it out in the end holdin your hand i believe i'll be alright, but nights like tonight is what really f*cks with my mind - i want you around all the time, and its unhealthy - i question if its love, i answer it must be - but trust me dont trust me, you can love me but dont tell me, i know me well and  believe me i dont even believe me, i'll love you more if you leave me - at the same time i'll hate you, it was your biggest mistake to have mistaken me mistakely, now i have you hating me - or are you just faking, see - for some reason, your misleadin me, i cant read you, you keep trying reading me, but one thing i know you believe in me - you put fear in me, you breathe in me, im the air for you, im here for you whenever you need me to, i can be greedy too, but tell me is it worth it if im hurtin just by the thought of them sayen your name, im cursin maken it worse and at the same time i really cant complain, its just the same vibes when we gonna realize, we feel the same at the same times, instead of being honest and say whats really on our minds, we front and lie - its like were wasting our time, but i know what were both tryin to do, you cant live without me and i dont want to live without you, so we both try playing hard to get at the very same time just because we want eachother to stay longer in eachothers life, it might seem wise but time is of the essence, lifes timeless when your in my presences, but that could all fall apart in just seconds, if we keep this up well start regretting every feeling we ever felt and well im only trying to deal with whats real here and thats the way you make me feel - its real here foreal - its every feeling i could ever want to feel - but its unbelieveable how were both un readable, you dont understand me and it makes you cant stand me, and the thought of her finding out about us makes me sick to my stomach, but i want it, like i need it - i want it believe it, if your leaving believe me your gonna need it in time- and its that same line ' your my inhale exhale ' before you leave think of how youll feel if the next is here, i want to leave at the thought of how your ex will feel, if your ex'll hear , im at my best when his ex is near me, with your lips  pressed on mine, you give the best kiss i ever was givin in my life - but seriously i been taking things way to seriously