Dan..

I can't help the way I am. I'll always be like this. I do what i want and i don't care if it hurts other people. But I am sorry i hurt you. I'm sorry I put you through all this knowing it wouldn't work. I didn't deserve you. I hope you find someone that can treat you right and that you can be happy with. I have too many issues to have a good relationship with anyone and i will for awhile. I may of acted like I didn't care but i did. I still do. Most of the the time i was too numb to show it though. I told you i had only been smoking for a week, that was a lie. I've been smoking again for awhile now. I just started more old habbits this week. I really do love you though and i already miss you so much. I hated knowing I was going to screw up you're life, you were going to move for me and everything. I pretty much fail at life so my future is shit. I just wanted to say I'm sorry.