A sad poem about two girl's romance. |
She held me in her arms Told me "love you, go to sleep." I clutched her arms and Whispered "baby, my hearts yours to keep." She smiled in that boyish way Pressed her face in my hair Said "i will keep you safe and warm, You'll always have me there." I squeezed her hand and murmured "Promise me that's not a lie?" "Never" she breathed lovingly. "Without you I would die." I snuggled in for warmth Pleased and happy just to know. And who could have predicted I'd be the first to let go? I wont forget her face, Fallen, ashen, all cried out Never forget the pain I saw The breaking I had felt If lovers love so greatly and Real love is hard to miss, Then how could I have been so blind And put us through all this? I watched her find a lover A replacement, I was sure. In all the hurt wed suffered This part I could not endure And there it was so plainly In the smile on her face holding hands in pictures While my tears went all to waste. I started hearing rumors about new love being made And beautiful whispers where me and *my girl had once laid I begged for space much needed Sobbing, gasping on the phone. I'd never felt so beaten, so despondent and alone. But who was I to break, One who'd said her feelings ceased? The shame of what I'd done Made the agony increase. No more than four Mere days had passed Before I got a call. "I need you, please listen to me, You're all I have, at all." She told me they were over That the fighting wouldn't end That she had missed me desperately And wanted her best friend And just as things had darkened Everything seemed to begin To look brighter and more hopeful That I'd be with her again. Encouraged by the difference In the way we could relate, I asked if there's a future Where she and i could date. She said "not sure, But if we got together, I'd be glad. were taking steps to make it be Something that we once had." We made big plans for movies And for arts and crafts and games The way that things were looking up, I thought she felt the same. But tragedies have taught us, Nothing beautiful can stay. And everything came to a halt One hot and gloomy day "I'm still with her" she stated, As if I should understand. I screamed and threw the phone out, Made a ball out of my hand. I've never had a black eye, Nor such bruising on my cheeks. I lied and said I'd fallen, I used that excuse for weeks. I tried to find her love In a girl I barely knew. And when her fingers thrusted me I hoped I'd tear in two I stopped hearing her voicemails And her anger on the line, I stopped taking her screaming of "Stop it! You should be fine!" I laid in bed and wept, Feeling my broken heart wail. How could I pick up pieces When my life was off the rails? 3 weeks went by, no word, But I soon began to smile I told myself "girl, you can do this. It just takes a while." I feel it in my heart, That sad aching is still there Ill never replace what we had The moments we have shared. But somewhere down the line, Something heavy's gotta give. I can't keep being hopeful For a change, I've got to live. If that means I can't see her For a week, a month a year, So be it, I can only work On moving past my fear. No matter what, I have to be the me I was before. And soon Ill claim a dignity For leaving deaths cold door. |