I Still Have Hope

As I sit drinking my morning tea I am amazed by the things that have happened in my life. Now unemployed mother of a child I don't even get to see. I find myself both looking forward and looking back. It's been a year since I'v seen him and parts of my heart are finally starting to heal. Now I get to think of me, yet I'm reminded to think of other's and I'm wondering how I will fit them in where I have put so much of myself. Healing is hard when the heart becomes frosted over. It's starting to warm agian and I can see a future ahead that includes more children in my now loving relationship and a life God has given me that is greater than I ever could have imagined. He will give me double for my trouble. It is only in seeing his presence that any of this is possible. Asking him for his peace because my peace is not really peace at all but a bunch of worriing where I try to tell myself I'm ok. With him though I know I'm ok and that I will walk through everything. Thank You