pain

i have pain that you can never mend.you can cover it up with a fake smile and a hug but it never leaves. you cant see it. you can only see the effects of it. the outcome.the ways that it effect you in little ways but impact my life. this pain lingers around to soon drain you out of all willinf energy until you just finally quit. you quit showing the advantages and the effects of himleaving. this pain you cant heal with a band aid and a quick pep talk. i hate thatmy mind constantly reminds me of him and the pain that he left. everything reminds me of him. then the night he left and hurt me. my pain feels worse then a thousand knives being carved into my back, like a jack o lantern. my pain dont compare to watching your heart getting rolled over with a steamer with one vain connected so that you can still feel the pain of it getting chrushed. my pain is on the inside. where not the heart that sends blood through my body is broken but emotionally i am dead. he toke all feeling that i could ever have for someone else. he replaced it by hate and pain. i have pain that can never mend