Tears In The Dark

I tried to write a poem today
I tried to express my grief,
My heartache, my unending pain.
I tried to eloquently describe
All the things I feel within
All the reasons I just can't sleep
Why thousands of tears, of late
Keep caressing my downcast face.
I tried so hard to explain away
All the sounds of sobbing
Resonating in the lonesome dark.
Nothing but my grief and so many tears
Keep me company through the long night.
I tried to come up with a way to tell
I thought deep, long and hard
Until all my thoughts began to bleed
Incoherent then, unable to move
Nearly drowning my mind in sorrow.
I tried to write you a poem, dear brother
But finally I realized
No words in any language, none fair nor foul
Could tell how deeply I grieve for you, beloved.
So many things I wanted to say to you-
Now I have to hope that somehow, you know
As night's silent embrace envelops me again
And once more, ragged sobs and silent tears
Are all to be found in the dark.


(written August 30th, 2007) I wrote this five days after my younger brother, my only sibling, was killed in a car accident. It may not be my best work, and it isn't my own favorite of my poems, but it was written for a special, wonderful person whom I love(d) with all my heart and this poem is a piece of my heart in words.