Chapter One; Thought It Was Easy

Do you not know how life could get much worser for me? Well I thought it wouldn't, but turns out it became my American Tradgedy. Littledid I know my speacial someone just like me, so he didn't come to school Friday. Well when i got home i decided to check up on 'em. Well when I gotell let me clue you in on some info that is needed to know in this situation. He's white and his sister doesn't like me because I'm black and come to find out the reason why is because she's been hurt by a black guy and she doesn't want her little brother to have the same feeling as her. I told her that I wouldn't dare hurt him but he's the one doing the hurting. The night that it happened was April 30th, 2010. I couldn't believe it. She stole his phone and just like took him to some girls' house and let him kiss all over her. Thats at least what I've been told. I've been told so many thingss that i just don't know i jjust keep trying to tell myself "Ohh she's lying ohh I don't care," but seriously I care so much that my heart was completly destroyed by the pain of such a racial act. I mean I told her congradulations you ruined my relationship the best one I've ever had but you've also crushed the human being inside. Doesn't anyone know what I'm going through or even have any sympathy anymore around here? Has this earth come to a simpathetic place full of trash and golbal warming? Why am I getting soo entertained by my many questions? Well I am and I'm just asking them because this right here this little racial act has scared me for life, and the many people that surround me each and everyday doesn't know what type of person I am underneath all that I am on the outside. I don't even want to tell you what I am on the inside, but on the outside I am the girl with no heart. That nothing can ever come inside and start a big group of happiness from anywhere. I may crack a smile but only to make others instrested or let them know that I care(when I really don't). Life has been hard ever since then. Which is only two days, but life has been hard ever since the lost.