To Fill The Blackhole

The way i fill this space,the way i feel like its empty.

    I wanna feel like im alive and free.

I wanna be able to feel like i can beet anything in the world.

    But i cant feel anything like that.

Im the one that has to suffer and listen to others forever.

    Im crazy and i kno it but right now i wanna be free.

From all these people that try to change me and others.

  Kill this fear that i hold in side my heart to die.

If i must go then i must cry as i fall to my doom.

  Are you the same as me and can we be as one.

Im just so different from everyone else its not always a good thing to be different from others i stand out from them.

  Am i so different that they want to ignor me.

Am i that different that i cant fit in with my own best friends.

  I stand out in a crowed im different but not by much.

Just enough to feel left out and never wanted by anyone.

  Even i am different from my family im just not the one.

The one they want to have there im the one they want gone.

  They dont see me as a real person and this im scared of.

Im not seen as a real person im powerless to everything.

    Just everything they say, just about anything they say.

I wanna fill this blackhole that i hold in my heart let it die.

  Along with every other horrible memmory thats there.

Everything in my heart needs to die so that i can for get that alful ride that i had when im me.

  Kill it all off and into the darkness that is around me.

I can really feel it all around me never hearing and never needing.

    That thing called love that everyone else has.

As i fill this blackhole with the darkest memmories i fall into a very,very,very deep sleep.