The reminiscing of my first love. |
Kinsey Madame, You gave me the greatest year of my life, Any day I would do it again, I must say honestly, You are the most wonderful creature I have met The Most Beautiful Elegant Lovely Silly ( In a good way of course ) And I am so lucky to have been able to love and be loved by you. Don't worry Doll, Mrs. Hammyham will always adorn my bed as I slumber, As she is my eternal reminder of you, The perfection that I lost, In my idiocy, the perfection I do so fondly remember. Each, every day, to this day, I run through our year mentally. I sit and try Try to imagine you are here, with me Try to remember the love that so filled each and every one of your hugs Every touch Every Kiss I try so desperately. To feel what I once could feel, at any moment. The fact is true, I remember but good things. I remember, the days I was sick Home Alone for so long The day you gave me the stuffed animal I now cannot sleep without. I remember swimming with you!, And Trying ever so hard to get you the best collection of birthday presents. The Roses for romanticism The Bubble wrap to show the childish side of my immeasurable love for you. You said it was your best birthday ever!, In the history of all birthdays. Looking into your eyes Each time, being astounded by the Beauty I saw The shear, unimaginable beauty. The oh so many times we were at the park together, Our first Kiss On those very bleachers by the Tennis Court I remember the first time I saw you! Fondly as well, of course Amidst the crowd I saw the group The group I knew you belonged to, I saw you, in your Infinite Divine Angelicness I stood Hoping Wishing Praying That the one with the bright orange skinny jeans was you, The one that I had already been acquainted to, By a friend, over MSN We went to The Rock, I remember With friends we went. I introduced you to Alex, Drake, and Moose You introduced me to Edie, Carlie, and Emerie, Oh!, and lets not forget Shelby. I remember speaking to you, and comforting you when you were upset So many times. So many memories. I remember the times those awful girls Ridiculed You, you were devastated. But another chance for me to form that smile That lovely smile. That cold day, I remember as well. Me, You, Moose, and Aaron walked to my church, Only for Moose to be picked up, Scolded by his mother. I remember the snowy Sunday We spent at the park There is so much I remember. I remember how beautiful you were, and are Everytime I saw you, Flawless Breathtaking. It was truly a godsend to be able to get used to such Beauty Talking to you, for hours on end Through the night, And early daytime hours. Adventuring through the Woods By your house, And going to the doggy shelter, Meeting Scrappy, the cute little dog.. He had to hide from the others, they were Meanies! Visiting the pet store on Main Street Visiting so many places. So many memories.. I remember, at the park Riding my scooter, and bailing off of it, jumping on you Yelling “Kamikaze!”, Then lying amidst the grass, Exhausted, Looking into your eyes, And hugging you, The cubby you got in Sunday School Still there Full of crafts, Few made by you. Most made by me in your absence. I still make duplicates of whatever crafts we do, The few times I do attend Sunday School anymore. I pray for you twice then, Using both my rosary, and the one you abandoned.. Even if there is no god, I like to think I’m doing you some good. I remember when you started going to my churches evening Taze Services, we would always light all the candles. Remember my dad catching us kissing in the Narthax?!, (The room that led to the chapel) I remember how embarassed you were. My dad simply, Jokingly Shook his finger and said “Kids, Not in the Narthax” We then hurriedly finished lighting the remainder of the candles. All those movies we watched together, When you cried at the end of Moulin Rouge! So many memories… Whenever I was hurt Or scared Or upset You would comfort me, talk to me in your cute little Voice, The voice that never failed to get me to Smile I Swore I would marry you, And maybe under different circumstances, I would have been granted that honor. You are the one Fish For me, the one perfect match. I remember playing Video Games Even, with you. Gauntlet at the movie theatre Grand Theft Auto We were going to play Fable II I remember also, the time your dad entered you room, as we were Lying down Watching a movie, We both got in trouble, And you were Terrified, that you would not be able to see me again. ..I remember comforting you, I remember how nice it felt to hold you while you were upset, And to reassure you that it was a gesture of love on your dads part. To reassure you that everything was going to be alright. I remember climbing trees with you, Playing in playgrounds with you, Exploring with you. I remember the day we found out Michael Jackson died!!, We were both lying on the floor in my living room, my parents were on the couch. Remember? I had fallen Asleep You woke me up, and upon my waking, I was astounded By your beauty once again Like always So many memories…. Going to sports games with you! And Juggling At them. I remember many of your schoolmates thought my juggling was Interesting I never got the chance to show them my new ball ): I remember the day we were walking to my house, And I got Bored. So I Tossed My old yellow ball, And it landed on the Concrete I tried very hard to make it land in the grass.. But I failed. I remember feeling a bit down afterwards You, in your cute voice, turned to me And convinced me it was alright. I remember doing crafts with you, Listening to music with you Driving in cars with you! And I remember how, In the Beginning You were always scared your parents, or brother Would see us kissing, or hugging. You were too shy to say “I love you” in front of your parents! I told you that your fear was misplaced. I do respect your parents deeply, and would Understand Should they have set up more strict rules after seeing Such things. I remember how much I respected your dad, And the fact that I had to earn his Trust A second time. After being Found Watching a movie with you while Lying on the couch. I do though, like I said Respect And Understand The purpose of that rule. I remember trying to explain to you, that your dad Loved You, and that he was truly doing it out of Love But I guess a Hug Is better than any words I could spit out of my Little old mouth I remember how Funny Your mom would be, And how Pleasant She was to talk to, I miss you infinitely darling, Though I miss your family as well. It’s too bad I never got to meet your Brother, From the way you talked, he Sounded Like he would have been a Nice Person to meet as well. I remember getting you Onion, I was so Proud Of myself I thought it was a great Present, I got you chocolates and mints as well. I remember how, upon receiving your gift, your eyes Swelled And Teared That look made my day, And I got another opportunity To hug A creature of such beauty I remember going on my long trip to San Diego, And being Miserable Without you, I only got to talk to you for, Perhaps 4 minutes a day! I got you a teddy bear from Las Vegas A plastic alien from Roswell, New Mexico, And your fantastic Necklace Along with it’s box, The necklace made of Rocks and minerals From the Grand Canyon I remember How We accidentally Broke The chain on it. I was always trying to find a new one. I was so upset when it broke, the minerals where even one of your Favorite Colors!, Purple. I remember the highlight of our 2 trips to Joplin, As well Especially the second time, when we Didn’t get home until Late We sorta napped Cuddled/leaning Upon eachother I remember how Comfy It was to lie my head On yours And part of the time, you would Rub The my Back And head I remember on Halloween, Going trick or treating, Attending Indias “Party” ( only 3 people ) And eating the Funny Tasting cupcakes I remember Walking Around on the fallen tree next to the Big read playground At the park. Me, you , and Moose, I believe. I also remember bringing Lightsabers To Downtown Java And filming an epic lightsaber duel ( Emerie was quite a skilled Jedi Knight!) You were too shy to join us. I remember all the times we would Hang Out at Downtown Java, With friends Or not. So many memories….. It was a pleasure to love you, And be loved by you. I am very priviledged, for having such Time With you. With Love Always, Sir Chris |