My life and all tht jazz (Autobiography)

I am leading a very hectic crazed life
I have seen more than most think and I feel to extremes.
I grew up faster than I should have and done things I regret.
My days are short and my nights are long, but for every passing minute I seem to find something to focus my time on.
I do know not know where I belong or where I am supposed to be.
I am as lost and as unsure as ever.
I got caught in the tears of sadness and drowned, at the same time I let go of everything and now I am just me-simple yet confusing.
I have heard the furiouse screams of angry fights and the laughter of happy couples in love for the first time.
I know so much yet I know nothing at all.
I hate the faces that are all so judgemental and wrong......
The people who feel as if they know my story when they pass me and see my clothes or my hairs and make-up they are wrong about me.
I love so many things yet nothing really important. I have lost many loved onesand still from day to day I make it with a smile on my face.
I am looking for nothing at all, while i live my life. I live day to day. I do not ponder the past, but i do dream unthinkable dreams.
I am in no hurry to grow up and lose my years like most are, I am not trying to wish my life away.
I wish so many things it would blow your mind, but most of all I just wish one simple thing and that would to be able to grow up with him there and have him to love and care for me when i needed him, but I am in my teens and he has been there only as much as he wanted to be so what am i to do.
Someone I rarely ever see he visits less often all the time.
He has chosen a life over me it is filled with darkness and danger over me.
He has chosen another life.......one without me in it.
My heart is full of emotions that i rarely ever let show, I feel mpre than many would ever beleive.
My heart has been brocken and put back together it had been messed with and yanked in many different ways., but my one and only has helped me through he had help me when i cried and cheered me up when i was sad he always finds a way to make me laugh.
He has saved me from my sadness and my hurt he want to protect me from all things evil and cruel....He is my superman, someone to save me then i am in danger of falling to far down
Well this is it..........