Indescreet

I have tried so hard

to see you.



But you're never there,

never was,

never will be...

and I guess I'm glad

happy -

thankful,

and surprised that I'm here.



You almost devoured me at birth,

and I almost drowned in your sorrow,

each time money exchanged hands

and the container fell to the floor

empty

I can't see you anymore.