Fernando

I give him my heart

Still beating and alive

And I ask him not to break it

For the first time I have broken

Down my walls

I miss him the most at night

As I lie in bed with eyes open

Wishing I could feel his hands

On my lonely body

He is older than me

Almost twice my age

The strip of grey hair gives him away

I don’t mind it

He is young in the more important ways

I met him while we were held behind

Hospital walls

I left him there for freedom

But still he sits

And I am free but not completely

I remember walking down the hall

Sneaking forbidden kisses and

Rushing to touch each other

I miss our half hour get-a-ways

On bathroom floors

But mostly I want him

I want him free from the chains

They keep him in

Free from the hospital doctors

Who have no idea who he is

Yet they claim control over him

They have no idea what its like

To keep us separated

To refuse lovers of their love

He is beauty and handsomeness

Wise and wonderfully understanding

I keep him inside of my thoughts

And mostly I wait

I wait for the first night we will spend together

With closed eyes and lips connected

Fingers intertwined

Heart beating together

Finally free