this is the endless search for self manifested in reality |
When I awoke it was dark the silence was immeasurable all i could see was myself and the blackness that reached on forever I was alone here surrounded by my thoughts lost within myself my mind began to wonder as I tried to remember, but felt nothing waiting here maybe I had forgotten... i began to think there was never anything to remember at all floating through the formless darkness who am I. yet there was something lost between the reaches of my subconscious and this place it lingered on like half forgotten words compelling me to remember i reached out into the emptiness as if to catch it into existence but it slipped through my thoughts again and again, until nothing mattered I retreated to the silence letting it consume me into sleep I dreamt of my folly and in it was a question but this I could not answer it escaped me just as the reply had done eventually i awoke not knowing how long I had been asleep yet it didn’t seem to matter soon my dream began to come back to me and i pondered its question yet the answer still eluded me why? I began to feel a sense of purpose to find this answer it drove my thoughts becoming my obsession time past and still I wondered waiting for something to come it meant everything to me eventually i became the question itself searching for my answer but there was nothing here and no reason why. then I saw it it was of identity a question of the self a reply of relationship what was I to this place where had i begun where did it end realization came then in an instant as if it were the only light that shone in this darkness it rolled off my lips as I whispered giving it life the answer echoed out into the dark and came back as it had begun as a question then the darkness faded in that instant and at last i knew I am the reply |