things that i can and cannot say to you

Things that I can and cannot say around you

I can say hi when I see you
But I cannot say that my heart burst with excitement.
I can say goodbye when it is time to part ways
But I cannot say that I never want to see you go.
I can say that you look great
But I cannot say that you are the most beautiful woman that I have ever laid eyes on.
I can say that you have a great sense of humor
But I cannot say that I want to spend all day laughing with and at you.
I can say that you love to go for walks
But I cannot say that if I had the chance at one more walk with you I would walk and walk and never stop just to be in your company.
I can say that you are an amazing teacher
But I cannot say that your passion for teaching makes me admire and envy you beyond belief.
I can say that you make me smile
But I cannot say that when you make me smile I smile on the inside a trillion times bigger and brighter than the smile on the outside.
I can say that I think about you from time to time
But I cannot say that by “time to time” I do mean all the time and that I am incredibly sad because I miss you. 
I can say that we one day will be friends
But I cannot say that I want to be more than friends.
I can say that we used to be boyfriend and girlfriend
But I cannot say that I miss those days more than anything in the world and would give anything to have them back.
I can say that you are special to me
But I cannot say that I care about you so much that my blood boils thinking about how much you mean to me.
And I definitely cannot say that I love you and always will.