I'm Okay

My eyes have shattered

From all these tears

My heart is broken

After all these years.



To keep behind closed doors

Through smiles I try to hide

To all my emotions

That I have to keep inside.



Patches of sadness

Bruises come and fade away

Sewn to me is sorrow

And the scars that have to stay.



When I shut my eyes

I want to keep them closed

Never opening them again

Becuase there my dreamland goes.



So manys I've tried to sleep

To go to my contentful land

But then someone opens my eyes

And there they make me stand.



Rough times I throw people out

Not listening to a word they say

Why can't you leave me alone

Remember I am ok.



My hands are stained blackj

From the tears I wipe from my eyes

It's where the make up runs

It's where my happiness lies.



Through windows I see

The reflection of my face

All distorted and half faded

From this dense thick place.



Falling asleep is my fatality

I will be okay

Diminishing into my sorrow

It happens everyday.



So close I would seem

So faraway I would feel

So distant in my memory

So hard it seems to deal.



Waterfalls form a lot where I'm from

Down the rockiness of my cheeks

Then explode and hit the rock bottom

For contentment they've tried to seek.



Asleep is where I would like to stay

Imagining different things

Sorrowful tears fade away

And blissfully my heart sings.



Though times I've tried again and again

To be distressed no more

Something clicks inside my head

And regret comes running through my door.



Drained and insecure

Timid I am for life

Injured my soul stays

Smoldering in my strife.



I can't see through this fog

Hazy and confused

Motionless in this state

Unconcious and abused.



But one of these days

I would hope to see

The happy side of things

And all my pain will flee.



Except when this time comes

I'm sure I'll be asleep and gone

To my fantasy land

Where no one treats me wrong.



There I can be myslef

No one judges my personality

My waterfalls have dried up

And I'm my own individuality.



Acres and acres becoming clearer

The smog and pollution has died

Obvious notions come to my means

And this is where I go to stay alive.



Although wait, here it comes

The shadows of my normality

My character over looked

I'm coming back to reality.



Why does this have to happen

My reality taking its place

Stuck here in this humanity

More splitting down my face.



Well bruises come and go

But I'm the scar that stays

Not gasping for a hand to hold

Or a breath to help me through my days.



I'm an independent visual

That happens to be confused

My vague mentality of my life

That happens to survive bemused.



My anticipation forged

With my spirit disfigured

My hands and support are broken

With my mind so not configured.



Am I one person

Who veils my insecurity

Falling to pieces and no one knows

Because I am within obscurity.



Can't actually tell who I am

Or what I'm here to achieve

What's my purpose for life

For myself I dont believe.



Contention is my best friend

Though it would seem to be

Crowded rooms of deceit

It's all surrounding me.



I write my outlook down

For those who cannot observe

These feelings I try to cover

So many thoughts I don't deserve.



I weep my perdicaments out

And they stay where they fall

Clashing into fuming insanity

My heart has them all.



Lifted by the damage

Drowned by the glow

Raised by the deficient

Apathy is what I know



During the depression of excavation

Now I can finally tell

That instant press of energy

Is why this person fell



Damaged to the bone

Ripped in too deep

Arriving to my fantasy land

Now I stay asleep.