Awake

I open my eyes
To see that I'm in the bushes
Scratches covering my legs
Bruises, purple and irritated
The blood is dried
But I still feel the pain

I look around to see no one
I check my phone
3:06 am

How long have I been here?
When is it time for me to leave?
Am I allowed to go back?
What is the point?

I wasn't allowed to think
I wasn't allowed to be in pain
I wasn't allowed to be 15
I wasn't allowed to live

By going back,
I would just end up here again
By going back,
Nothing would change
I would still be unhappy
I would still be stressed out
I would still be alone
Forced to carry on the burden
Of the rest of the world

So I am going to stay here
Close my eyes
And dream
Dream about
My friends
My school
All the things my life should be

You see,
My life isn't that way
My life has never been that way
And will never be that way
So, now all I can do
Is lay here
Scratches and bruises
Blood and pain

Waiting to awake...